Phew, that last question is quite hard to answer, since not everyone is doing something for world peace, or to stop whale hunting, and making miraculous descision to end the middle-east fight.
So let me get back to me, since this is my blog ya...I haven't been really the kind of person who chase my dream of having an off-mainstream job, living in an almost too good to be true life. Well, who wouldn't want to be a famous singer-song writer who sold millions of records, who lives by the beach, surf everyday, having coconut pudding, and mango smoothies for breakfast like Jack Johnson? Boy, what a life! Not only he can do things that he really likes, he also made contribution to environment, making song about recycle and stuff & even his environment fund-raising campaign went well.
No matter hard I wish, I'm still just a regular guy, living in a big city, doing account management in Advertising Agency for living, not listed in any environmental organization, doesn't care about urban people social problem ( because thinking about my OWN social problem is quite distracting). All I know is that I gotta find a job to survive this mean world, to pay my shitloads of bills, to have fun sometimes, and thats it.
What do I know about passion? I am just too scared to go with my passion, since It may not seem real. Am I a coward! Yep, I chose to be this ordinary because I'm scared to be edgy.
I hate risks.
So Advertising is not my passion? Unfortunately yes. I've this 'thang' for advertising. I dont know why, but it seems like such fun (until i worked and felt the stress). But the road wasn't always smooth. Before I'm in the game, I was held up as a customer service officer in an express shipping company, boy! I had a handsome living. They have this incentive scheme which made paycheck doubled up or even tripled every month!. But then under the name of "passion" and "comfort zone", I had an affair with the HR Dept of a prominent Advertising Agency. I had the "oh-god-thank you-thank you" moment when I finally got the job. I thought yupe, my Kick Andy moment has finally arrived.
Or soo I thought, after really jumped in to the industry, I like it, it's very dynamic and fluid and also full of areas to be creative -even in Client Servicing - but, the enjoyment cant cover my being stressed when I realized that I really have to cope-up with the salary.
It's not like is not that good, it was not bad actually, but my previous job made it clear that I was living a manager's paycheck though I'm only the smallest fish in that pond. I even managed to get me a crib - though just a tiny one - but my lifestyle is turning upside down when I started to pay for my mortgage. Really, I hardly could make ends meet. I cant buy things or do stuff that I can usually do without hesisating whether I have enough cash or not.
So I guess, following your passion doesn't necessary mean that you can get a pretty pay check. I begin to questioning again about that passion, the guide to your soul that makes you really want to live this life. I thought what a crappy concept!.
Yup thats the end of my writing. I know it's crappy, as crappy as what I've explained, maybe crappier, or even the crappiest crapp you'll ever read in your crappy-crappy life
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